When I was little I always loved the little beauties in life, whether it be playing board games, Christmas lights, a warm blanket…it was the little things that made this little girl smile and be happy. Somewhere along the way I lost my ability to see the beauty in all of the little things…ED took over and stole my joy, but today…I see the beauty and the wonder in the little things in life because…I am learning to live a life without ED…
In 365 days I have experienced more change than I could have ever imagined…I changed relationships, jobs, career paths, living situations, some friends, and gratefully I changed one of the most important things in my life…I changed my relationship with ED…and in that one decision my whole life has been changed.
As I look back on a year ago I am overwhelmed with gratitude. One year ago today I made the best decision I have ever made…to recover from ED. So today I celebrate (and let me tell you, it is even better than celebrating a birthday!). Today, I am also flooded with memories that I never hope to repeat but blessed that they brought me where I am today. Life a year ago was miserable and I had no idea how miserable I was until I started to break free from ED. I never imagined I could eat food and enjoy it, that I could go to a restaurant and not be overwhelmed, that I could make it through a meal without a breakdown, that I could go months without skipping a meal, and that by ED not controlling my every thought that I would get to focus on all that I love in my life. My life is so radically different today and I have so much joy in my heart that I never thought was remotely possible.
When I started my true journey a year ago I had so many people fighting for me, I had so much support, so much love, so many prayers. I am one incredibly blessed girl and I will always be so immensely grateful for those who walked the journey (and are continuing to walk the journey with me). So today is about my amazing support team too, it’s about thanking them for never giving up on me and loving me through the journey. Each of them will forever hold a dear place in my heart, because they believed in me when I couldn’t and they are a HUGE part of the reason that I celebrate a year of recovery today.
I have to be proud of how far I have come too…and today I am proud of my journey and the peace and the joy I have. Today I rejoice, celebrate, and thank God that His mercies are new every morning and that His grace is enough.
I hope this is an encouragement to you…life gets so much better in the journey without ED. You can do it and it is so worth it! My prayer is that your life will be radically changed through recovery. Like I have said before there is so much beauty waiting for you to see and I want you to see it too. Today I get to smile as I look at all the beauty around me and who knows maybe I’ll even celebrate with some cake (now you know that is a big deal in the best way:))! Today I am grateful. Here is to a year of recovery and celebrating that there is so much life without ED!
YOU are LOVED and YOU are WORTH it!